First they came for…

It’s not dead, it’s just pining for the fjords.

The battery in mine exploded! By which I mean I found it one day with a big outward bulge in the back. Years after I stopped using it, but still I can’t use it for this now. 😭

I was not upset, I was just trying to clarify my position, and get clarity on yours. Normal discussion stuff. I understand if you don’t have the energy/interest to continue though, since I still don’t understand your position nor do you understand mine.

Well, automation under our current system, yes.

“Categorize experience”? That kinda sounds like that generalization I was talking about, which is not what this is here. It’s a simple matter of “people in this group have a higher likelihood of exhibiting this behavior than people of other groups”. Simple observation. It’s not saying that only people in this group exhibit it, or even that all people in this group exhibit it. Just that more do. It’s not even necessarily claiming direct causation. Maybe people in that group have experiences that make them more likely to exhibit that behavior, so that would make it environmental. But the cause is another discussion.

As for “look for problems at an individual rather than systemic level”, I’m afraid that I don’t know what you mean here. I wasn’t talking about any problems. Are you referring to the injustices themselves maybe? Because that’s a whole other discussion too. I’m talking about psychology, not politics or economics. (And while it’s not relevant, yes, I am acting on it, and far more systemically than most people.)

I wasn’t trying to dismiss anything. Just pointing out that it’s a commonly observed trait in ADHD people. It’s a scientific perspective to notice that people with certain neurologies tend to exhibit certain behaviors more often than people with other neurologies. It’s not stigmatizing unless you are both generalizing and value judging.

That’s me too, an effect of Justice Sensitivity, a common trait among both ADHD and autistic people. Before I knew that I was both, I used to tell people that I was allergic to advertising, to convey my feelings about it.

My suspicion is that it’s not so much age as the cumulative effects of cptsd. Life in this world just keeps grinding most of us down.

Sure I may have used Windows in the past, but now I wash my hands of it.

I wonder if this counts: I don’t like the look of some things because my mind instantly imagines how it would feel, so if I wouldn’t like the texture, I don’t like looking at it because it gives me the same unpleasant feeling. Sounds like a synesthesia.

Me too. I didn’t know that skin cremes could make dragons. 😲

😛

Going to see a doctor in an hour to see if they will be my regular/“family” doctor. Here’s hoping that they are neuro-affirming because getting diagnosed is an important conversation I need to have right now. 🤞

(And of course it’s the coldest day of the week (-20/-25 c) and I have to walk there. 🥶)

I learned to embrace my weird in my teens. Of course, it’s a lot easier when you have others to be weird with, and I was very lucky with that back then. Lately, I haven’t been as lucky.

Sunday is ttrpg day for me. Today I’m running Vampire: The Masquerade (V20/V5 + house rules hybrid I call V25; also apropos since the game started in Jan 2025). In the wake of last game’s politcal/economic problems (that’s right, I managed to inject economics into my vampire game, and in a way that is not as boring as it may sound), today the group will be discovering more about the (literally) dark secrets held by the NPC member of their group.

I left my reporting for government assistance until just a few days ago. They prefer to have it by mid-month. ED is a bitch.

Let’s see…

Navigating the local health care system to try and get a regular “family” doctor. Today’s e-mail tells me I have to walk in to get this started. It didn’t actually confirm that they had any doctors accepting new patients right now. 🙄

Trying to work up the nerve to contact therapists for various types of help. I have found two possibilities, but something is holding me back that I don’t understand.

Learning to play Spacebourne 1 to see if I want to buy #2 before it goes off sale in a few days. Not sleeping well so I’ve spent more time playing old save games of Deus Ex instead.

And no plans for NYs. Not enough friends or money.